January 2012
10 posts
slipping into a funk.
get it out of me.
lol louie.
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someone having a crush on you that you don’t return is the worst.
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“don’t make me sad, don’t make me cry, sometimes love is not enough...”
– born to die, lana del rey
i don't adjust very well.
he wasn't just a distraction to me.
December 2011
23 posts
“i wish the world was flat like the old days.”
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tip on exes:
change their icon picture on your phone to someone you find really ugly/obnoxious. that way every time they text you, you’re annoyed/sickened. at least, that’s what i do. eventually, when they don’t make your throat constrict like the walls in the star wars trash room, they can go back to the anon picture.
This New Year's Eve I'm going to play Finley Quaye...
me too
i'm a depressing fuck
knock it out you bitch
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“the same way anything lost gets found…i stopped looking.”
– john locke, lost
i quit facebook for a while:
why? because i am addicted. and i creep people that make me feel like shit the rest of the day because they are happy and tan and attractive and they are gone.
but also because i think facebook is really taking the joy out of some things. take pictures for example. i can’t remember how many times i smile, but not because i’m having a good time or want to, i smile because it’s...
or not.
i’ll be okay.
reality vs. expectations
in reality it looks like i’m handling this really well. he’s gone in various countries and soon forever, and i’m just trying to keep it together. and i’d say i’m doing a pretty good job. but you know why that is? because i’ve given up. and i know that sounds really bad and depressing. but what else can i do? it’s going to end and it’s already over....
“It’s okay. You are loved. You are loved even if some people don’t love you. Even...”
– Oh Sugar. Really knowing this might be the start of everything. Let’s say it over and over and over until it is memorized. Until it rings us inside and out like watermarks, like shadows, like echos, like gold. Like dowries for our lovers and our children. (via beenthinking)
“Do things or maybe don’t do things. Buy some overpriced stuff or don’t buy...”
– How To Live in New York City, a rejected Thought Catalog post by Pilot. (via synecdoche)
i'm really good at pretending.
i spent the last 10 hours keeping my shit together.
but now i really don’t feel like doing that.
“Tell everyone you know: “My happiness depends on me, so you’re off the hook.”...”
– Abraham Hicks (via nogreatillusion)
suffocation keep.
i can’t breathe. i keep holding my pillow. i just want to sleep but it’s never going to come.
you were my trumpeter swan.
future sadness
how do you plan for it
November 2011
12 posts
but it's a rollercoaster.
so fuck, now in the low part. i think he’s trying to end things/leaving.
but lonely is healing if you make it.
this is what the rollercoaster is all about
him: i miss youuuuu
trust no one.
what a messy thing, feelings.
like mud on a white shirt
or cranberry juice on carpet.
i want to be the tin man
October 2011
9 posts
when you get everything:
do you still want it?
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so when you start to hate yourself, does that mean...
what if you keep making it?
i miss my best friend
:(